Board Thread:General Discussion/@comment-35324176-20190214233204/@comment-36996285-20190221224136

OOF, I'm so sorry that all this is happening, especially with that fake friend of yours, it's SUPER annoying because THEY always wanna tell you about THEIR lives but you never get the chance to rant for just a minute about your own life because they'll always interrupt you with something that happened to them. It's so frustrating, right? That's also similar to what I'm going through, I love being around my mom, who always listens to me and supports me, but sometimes I can't STAND being around all my friends because every single one of them is too deep into their own life to care about their friend's lives. I can also relate with people not wanting to be my friends either, because I have this mental disorder called PTSD(Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder) and everyone in the school when they see me is like, "Oh.....look... there's that girl who gets triggered easily" or some rude people will just come up to me and say something like"omg if I do this will you get triggered and faint" and it's extremely annoying - I also have a prosthetic foot, so gym is always kinda awkward and I always try to avoid wearing sneakers because of it.

As for that girl - if she's ever being mean to you, then just think that the one thing that makes her feel superior(which she's not) is how she looks, and how looks hardly matter at all. My features are kinda mismatched, and I'm ugly as heck(I have green eyes though my biological parents don't, kinda an olive-ish brownish skin tone, straight hair that looks like a stick, i'm skinny as a stick, and i have nerdy glasses), but I gave up on caring anymore because I told myself that as long I looked presentable, I didn't have to look perfect or anything like that because in the long run it wouldn't matter. As for how she claims that everyone likes her? Just remember that she's saying all this because she's insecure and wants everyone to think she's popular, no offense to her.

One last thing in this next super long message(relatable with taking long to type these, i spend three minutes typing one line jsut to not seem socially awkward like I am, i ain't good with saying the right things lool), there's one thing that bothers me A LOT about my friends - they all think I'm this super-sweet innocent child who has the understanding of a first grader and thinks everyone should be perfect. One example? During study hall one day, my friend(who i'll call Fren I'm empty-headed ok) asked me to borrow one of the flashcards I had made so she see the definition for her own flashcard, and I agreed, but I asked her not to copy the definition exactly - I said that it was so we wouldn't get in trouble, but it was because I write pretty good and lengthy definitions and I didn't want her to copy my work. She said she wouldn't, and then I looked over and Fren had copied it EXACTLY. I was just like "FREN I asked you not to can you please change it?" and she's like "no it's ok the teacher won't even notice" and I'm like "We're not allowed to copy from each other anyways you could at least change it a little bit" and she just snorted, laughed, and said that I was 'too innocent'.

This incident was more recent, but normally, Fren and I sit at the same lunch table and it's usually just her and me, but she was like, "Oh let's go sit with the others" who were pretty much all the people that had used me. So we sat at the very squished table with all the people who used me, and they were all cursing, stealing food from each other, making inappropriate jokes, etc. And I'm just sitting in my lonely corner kinda shaking my head, and this one girl(known as the user now) laughed and said "you picked the wrong table chokoala you're too innocent for this table" and I don't like sitting at that table either way, but it just hurts to hear that people think you're too innocent, or think of you as some baby-ish person.

DONE WITH MY SECOND RANT Y'ALLS