User blog:Aconnie/Dear Those Intended For (foxatailed)

 -- Dear Those Intended For -- 

''Look, I really don't know how to begin this. But I guess I'll have to.''

''This letter is intended for you. And you know who you are.''

If you don't know what I am talking about, then I'll have to clarify this.

''In the time you played AJ, you knew a certain person. Her name was foxatailed.''

She might've been something to you that is different than one of the others this letter is also meant for.

''Maybe she was your best friend. Maybe she was something more than that. Or maybe you weren't really that close to her. Maybe she was just fodder in your buddy list, a buddy you never really talked to.''

''Well, I'm her. I'm not even kidding. If you want me to prove it, I will.''

''A long time ago, three of who this letter is meant for made a pact to meet one day. I don't know if you remember doing it, but I do. I also remember, when we played by the frozen heart pond, that all of you were in the frozen heart pond, except me. I thought one of you, the one I cared most about even at that time, was drowning, so I tried to save her by lifting her up by her spiked collar. That attempt failed, and you all looked at me weirdly (at least, it felt like it).''

''Since then, I've felt that embarrassment, over and over again. Plus, on top of that, I never actually felt like I belonged in the community. I was an outsider that only came into the picture''

''Alright, we good? Alright.''

''I have a few things to say, to each of you. I hope you understand which message is meant for you.''

''For two of you, I am sorry. For one of you, I am sorry for having acted rude to you back then. For the other, I am sorry for guilt tripping you. I wasn't aware of how guilty you were over me being gone and not being able to do anything about it.''

''For another two of you. For the first, I wanted to tell you that I never actually forgave you until I realized how foolish me keeping a grudge against you was, despite that night where we cried and forgave each other. I was too grudge-stricken to see beyond obsessiveness. I am sorry And for the second, what I meant by abandoning you to new people, was at that new years party, I introduced you to.. y'know who. Then I didn't talk to you for many months. I felt guilty because of that.''

''For one of you, please, contact me again on AJ, maybe on the spare I know you have now. I have to speak to you. And I have one last gift to give to you. If you're even wanting to see my face again, that is.''

''I hope you all get to read this at one point or another. I know not all of you will, but I'm going to try anyway.''

From,

foxatailed