Thread:Vaildated/@comment-34193805-20190107044831

not literally but I kinda want to die. I don't feel like dealing with this all over again but what other choice do I have? I'm not sure how to describe it but I always feel nervous with this sense of dread over me. people don't like me, I don't like them and even so it's fine because that's usually how it is. weekends can only last for so long, I always escape these feelings through these little games and social media but when that time comes stress and emotions just overwhelm me. sometimes it gets to the point where I turn to certain habits or addictions to forget (no it's not self-harm related.) I wonder if I am depressed but even if why would it matter, I belittle myself so much I don't know if I matter so why would I be special for questioning my possible depression? I know I'm being overdramatic, I hear college is way worse and I have no room to whine anyway. but even if I were to attempt suicide I would be a coward, I couldn't. I can't really think right now anyway but I'm sure you get the idea. haha wow so edgy am I right? it is a vent, I just wanted to go somewhere instead of a notepad for once so I guess this is irrelevant and will probably be deleted soon. 